a post to make you shake your head~
whelp… i had a realization this morning as i got on the scale..: ive gained about 8kg since i stopped going to my clinic several months ago. ㅠㅠ
so i made a decision. if i really want to get all this weight then i really need to try harder. and stop just saying i’ll try harder but actually do it.
the last time i did that was when i was going to my clinic. i had people to keep me on track. check my weekly weight. encourage me. and reprimand me when i was bad. they helped me a lot. i lost about 25 kgs with them. now having gained about 8 kg back i feel ashamed.
so my decision. start going back to that clinic. even if it’s inconvenient. to feel confident again i need to go back to the source that started my confidence boost~~
now i know meds and shots are not the natural way to do it but believe me when i say that I’ve tried the natural way and my body bulge… well… doesn’t budge. so i plan to ask them to help me restart without the shots. one reason being because theres a much cheaper place near my home that does better shots. and tends to have a better system for weighing in. also another reason I’m going to clinic #2 is because i prepaid in december for their package and i haven’t used all of my sessions so i might as well go there for ‘free’ shots. i plan to see later if they do the same meds system as clinic #1 cause it would be closer and easier to get to. so i guess that means i’ll have 2 clinics to keep an eye on me.
i want to do this to be healthier and happier about my body. i, also, have a better chance of sticking to my weight loss if i continue at a clinic. boy doesn’t care if i do it. he supports me if i do it this way or another way. he just wants me to be happy. and right now i’m honestly getting unhappier and more
annoyingly self-conscious with every kg that comes back on.
so now i’m halfway to the clinic… ready to start down this journey again and hoping for better results.
i hope yal will support me once again and continue to support me like before~
have a good day~~
